Alone

I'm all Alone in a world where I have no support for me or even my business building! I work hard so I can try and make money to support our boy's! I'm studying and working hard on it and really enjoying it! I know some day something will happen and hopefully I'll gain some clients for my Interior Design business! Yes my husband supports me but that's all I have! The people who I thought would support me are not real friends or family they're all fake! I'm not giving up on it, I really want to make this happen! 

Erin's Interior Design

Erin's Interior Design Here's a link 🖇️ to my Interior Design Business, I've set it up so I can get paid as well! I'm still learning more about it! I'm willing to help you with your home apartment or business with designing or decorating ideas! If you are stuck please let me know and I'll gladly help you with your project! You can message me or Zoom me I'm on Facebook, Twitter Instagram to help you with everything you need! I'm looking forward to hearing from you soon, thank you! 

Erin Embury 

Interior Designer

Designer I'm studying to become an Interior Designer! My plan is to work from home to help you with your home/apartment! You can find me on Twitter, Instagram and Facebook! Yes I have Zoom and I'll do video chat with you if you choose to! My rate is $25.00 hour you can e-transfer me at eandjembury.ee13@gmail.com or PayPal me https://www.paypal.me/ErinEmbury13

Home ⛺

Well it looks like we need to find some land somewhere to rent or buy! We need peace ☮️ for our family! We have people trying to create problems that shouldn't be happening! That's alright restraining orders will be fine! Instead of paying off our debts we're going to have to get land somewhere and buy a house trailer to put on the land, because a house trailer is all we can afford! Also our boy's are loud and we just want them to kid's and be loud when they want to be! So we need to have our own space with about 30 feet of yard maybe for planting veggies and the boy's can play! We can't live like this when there's horrible people treating us like we're the bad guy's when we've done nothing wrong! 

We need land with no neighbors so everyone can live in peace and quiet! 😭 The world is a horrible place and all we want is the best for our family and if that's what we have to do then we'll do it! I hope my husband presses charges and puts a restraining order against them! 

Rough

Last week started with Jeff getting sick, then giving it to me and the boy's! Luckily it wasn't COVID-19 but just the basic head cold virus! Then we had Easter, it was great! We all had fun and the boy's call the Easter Bunny, Bunny Claus 🐰🎅

They got Blaze and the Monster Machines 18 Wheeler's with ways the toy's can go around things! Lot's of Easter Candy and we had Cheese burgers with boiled potatoes for dinner! They also got other toy's as well! This week we're just all getting over the last of the cold and Kevin goes to SickKids Hospital on Thursday, fingers crossed 🤞 everything works out alright for him! I'm scared and nervous for him! The Bill's are being paid, some are always cut in half because of lack of fund's until next pay cheque to pay some off or third of payment etc ... 

I wished I could have gotten myself a steady 17 year's ago, but people were trying to get in the way of our relationship and soon marriage to be! So I had to stop looking for work, I've been a Homemaker 17 year's because of them! Yes I love being a Mom, I just wished I could help Jeff more financially but nobody likes me or wants to buy from me! There loss and I just don't care anymore! We're doing everything we can to make our boy's Live's better, including not paying for our debts that we have! We want them to have a good life after we're gone one day,and we pray that they both get loved and looked after we're gone! I fear not being around for them when I'm dead! I know my family will step up and help them because nobody on Jeff's side will do it, they can't afford to which is what they've told us many times! That's alright my family always comes through! 

Some day's I cook just the meat, then the veggies the next day! I have a lot of pain's, aches and sometimes my feet and legs try to give out on me especially at night time! I'm always numb from below my knees to my feet, then I have the chest pain's I'm dealing with, which is why I'm having a mammogram and ultrasound and biopsy done! My left breast is also swollen and I've noticed some purple colour to it! Sometimes I feel like a phenix and tiger with everything I've gone through in life! I've collapsed and passed out looking after the boy's and with no help except from them and they've been great helping me when I've needed their help! Yes there's been many times I've should have gone to the hospital, but I can't do anything until Jeff get's home from work, that way he can take over looking after them! 

Have a good week stay safe 😷 wear your Mask! If you are Essential wear your Mask! 😷

Course's

I'm enrolled in Aahworth College/ PCDI! I can't complete the courses until I can pay down my tuition fees and extended fee's! I'm making small payments on payments when I can it's a struggle! Hopefully we can get my husband other money soon so we can pay everything off including anyone who we owe money to! 

One Day at a Time!

Life can be a struggle, I'm working on some different options so I can get paid for #Blogging it's a struggle trying to find the best options to choose from! I do have #PayPal or #ETransfer as well! I enjoy Blogging! It's my story of my life and triumph! 

I live one day at time, I just go with the flow of whatever is going on with the day! I do everything I can for my family, I only have time for myself if I can get a shower 🚿 or have a doctor's appointment!  I'm always ready for bed by 9:00pm or earlier! I live with a lot of pain in my body, our children have growing pains and our oldest has other health problems! 

We're still grieving over our oldest cat 🐱 that passed away last December before Christmas 🎄 her favourite time of the year! Our hand's are full, our hearts are full of every emotion everyday! Yes we know life is tough but we do the best we can everyday with what we have! 

Lump's

Next week I have a check up, then probably a #Mammogram and #ultrasound I have a softball ⚾ size in my left breast and a tennis ball 🥎 in my right right breast! Then I'll be having a Mammogram for the next 9 year's as long as everything is clear! 🤞🙏 It doesn't matter you're age, get yourself checked out! ❤️

I know it's not October, but it doesn't matter what month or time of the year it is, get yourself checked out! 

Mom Life

Being a Mom is tough, don't get any time for yourself, always exhausted and burnt out! Making sure everyone is fed, clothed and have lots of diapers until they're ready for potty training! I always live with a lot of pain, it's really hard some day's, I do have good day's but they're few and far between! I love our boy's, I wished our oldest health was better for him, but he's very smart and catching up to where he should be! Yes he's still behind on some things but he's getting there at his own pace! Our youngest is doing great and learning well, he's ahead of his older brother but that's alright, they're not competing against each other! 

I would love to have break and clear my head of crap and get back to more positive thinking! I wished I had more friends to motivate and inspire me, but hey I'm not well liked, and either I push people away or they push me away! I would love for life to better for my family but all I can do is dream! I've been depressed, have had anxiety , sometimes I don't know how I do it, but I'm in constant survival mode it never ends! 

Things Are Good!

Things are going good for us, we're almost caught up with all the bill's, just waiting for the extra money to come in then we can get everything paid off! We have a awesome health plan now, everything is 100% covered now! It's much better than before especially with Kevin and myself always on medication for something! Jeff loves going to work everyday, he's a 100% happier, and love's what he is doing because it's always something new everyday! He has Awesome 👍 Co-workers and Awesome Bosse's , his hours are amazing and his day's off make it better for me and the boy's! 

Well for me you know I'm just just a full time Mom/Homemaker my hands are full with the boy's all the time! I may never get what I want or need to do for myself, but I'm just a Mom that doesn't mean anything or count as anything in this world, just like you're Mom's and Grandma's before you! It's the way it is, society has given Mom's a bad rap when they should be praised for what they go through on a daily basis! It's not always easy, Mom's used to get paid for raising the children and doing chores around the home! Yes we love getting paid in hugs 🤗 and kisses 😘 but a little appreciation would be nice! Have a great week, stay safe and don't drink and drive! 

Feeling Good

I feel pretty good, I've been able to lower some bills and make some changes with them! Yes I post about my reality of life and that's just who I'am it makes me feel good to get it out of my system this way! It doesn't matter if you like it or not it's me , take me as I'am or watch me go! Life is tough growing up in an uncertain world, because we don't day for day what's going to happen! I'm just great full to be alive everyday that I wake up! I have my aches and pains everyday, I have my daily struggle's, it's just nothing ever goes right for me! I can never do anything right at times! Maybe if I wasn't bullied in school by my peers whom I have so called friends on social media with, maybe my life would be different now! I could never focus much in a lot of classes, math was my worst subject, but I'm better at some of it now! I'm glad I did graduate both elementary and high school, because I really hated going to school! I always looked forward to when the school day was over and the year had ended! I had some real horrible bullies in school, I'm surprised a lot of them haven't been in prison for the types of people that they are! 

Yes I did make a couple of good friends but friendships don't last forever! Just remember your true friends are your own family, yes might have friends but they turn their backs on you very quickly! Some will say I'm their for you anytime but are they really ? Yes I know I can say the same thing, but life is tough and these are hard times for everyone! 

Have a good weekend don't drink and drive! 

Christmas 🎄

Yes Christmas 🎄🎅🤶 even when spring 💐🦋 is around the corner! The past couple of Year's with this pandemic a lot of families still haven't celebrated yet, they still have their tree 🎄 up and presents 🎁 under the tree! They have gifts under their tree from someone who couldn't make it because of this awful pandemic that took them to soon! It's hard for people, this is the longest I've seen Christmas 🎄 things from people around the world on all social media platforms! I don't blame them for not being able to celebrate or make the big dinner! Maybe one day they will open up the gift's, if not the grandkids or nieces and nephews down the road will have a Christmas time capsule to open up! So if you are at someone's house or apartment and see the tree 🎄 up don't ask questions, Don't tell them they should take it down, just respect them when you are there! Yes it could also be with Autism or ADHD  but that doesn't matter as long as it makes them happy, you could be happy to! Just remember life is short, take it with a grain of salt! 

Positive

I'm trying to be Positive in a Negative World! It's hard, I'm trying to focus on the things that need doing, trying to make things easier and happier! There's things I've experienced that I don't anyone else to go through, we had a lot of bad traumatizing experience when we was at our apartment! Yes there was some good but few and far between! Since we've been here in our new apartment, there's been a lot of positivity with our boy's improvement on talking and learning things! Things get looked after over like there supposed to, I highly recommend renting with hardwood floors, not with carpet!  Yes carpet can help with warmth but it also invites bugs into your home, if you can just have hardwood and lanolin flooring throughout! Easier to clean and look after, but that's just me! I also recommend getting metal furniture, just have a mattress with no box spring, because having the box spring invites bed bugs, also try using a metal futon for a couch it's cheaper and a good space saver! 

I'm making some financial change's by decreasing some stuff or decreasing stuff! I still have a lot of debt to deal with, but hey who doesn't these days LOL 👍

Us as Family in whole is good and happy, my husband love's his jobs and the pay's are better than they ever have been! We're just playing catch-up with everything but it'll happen in time but slowly! Our boy's are the most important thing right now, yes maybe I can't go to work or sell you anything because you don't want to buy from me, but that's alright I don't care anymore about it ☺️ I'll find a way to make money one day! Have a good week don't drink and drive! 

Struggling

Hi, Sorry I've been absent it's been a struggle this week and rough as well! I'm great full that my husband did change job's in December 2021! He just has to get his A-Z license now for other stuff he needs to do with his job! I wished I could could work as well, but our boy's need me, I feed and clothe them, play with them and do homeschooling with them! The doctors and OT's say we're doing everything right during this pandemic with them, especially with our oldest son immune system in the sewer system worse than a new born baby immune system! Luckily he gets blood work near the end of March then we can see where's he's at and how to treat him to get him healthier! 

I'm getting back into Blogging again, it helps me out and people can just read and say I've either been there or not! I'm trying to figure out stuff for myself and my family, I want an income as well! I know I need to Blog everyday in order for that to happen, I'm working on it! I'm looking forward to the warmer weather and getting out more often and I'm hoping we all get to Santa's Village in Bracebridge again soon🎅🤶 We all miss our trips away! Have a good weekend don't drink and drive! 

Living in Debt Life

Okay so I owe a lot of money to my credit Card's and other things! I owe $7,810.56 on my credit Card's! I have over $800.00 in my Walmart cart of things we need, I have $700.00 in Amazon cart of things we need! I'm a Homemaker for 17 year's now, which means I make no money and have no income! I rely on my husband income to pay for everything! It's hard and struggling to keep up with everything! I also have about $3,000.00 in tuition fees for courses I'm trying to take and learn if I ever get any free time to do so! I have websites but a lot required fee's to pay for them so you can buy from them! It's ridiculous, you should just go to the website and make a purchase, there shouldn't be fee's to have it! I don't want to do social media parties I just want you to click and buy something if you want it! 

This is Reality of my life, I want to get a couple of tattoo's for myself, go for more walk's when the weather gets nicer, I want to have time to learn things, but it's not going to happen any time soon! I live life one day at a time and do the best I can with it! 

Have a good week don't drink and drive! 

Don't Worry, Be Happy

I'm in agony a lot of the time, it's just my Arthritis acting up! Some days I can make a lot of meals, others it might be 1-2! I do the best I can, when it's damp weather it's really bad! 

There's a lot of things on social media I hit like on or share, but that doesn't mean I'm going through it, I just like it because I'm Human! You can't take everything personally, life is full of ups and downs! Right now we're living in a world that a child should never see or hear of! It should be full of butterflies 🦋 and rainbow's 🌈 there's nothing we can do about it unless something changes in our world! We all might be hurting or missing someone who was close to us in life! Let's just try and keep things moving forward and positive for our children and ourselves! 

Don't worry about Me, I'll find a way to make money and pay my bills, it may take longer than usual but that's life! With my health there's no way I could work anywhere, I don't qualify for anything because I can walk a mile or more! That's alright I'll figure something out eventually! Not everything is meant to be in life! 

Try and have a good week, don't drink and drive! Don't Worry, Be Happy I'll be alright! 

Rollercoaster Ride of Life!

Last fall I was diagnosed with severe anemia, I had 4 transfusions and have been taking iron pill's! I'm now taking a multivitamin and mineral as well as iron pill! I'm now getting better and my appetite is back again! Our boy's are a handful, everyday I try and work on cleaning and organising our Apartment! I play with the boy's and try and teach them new things as we go about our day! We're Homeschooling them and it's the best for their health right now because of them having low immune systems! 

I don't get a lot of me time, I'm also trying to take a couple of college courses but I'm still trying to find time to learn and for myself! I've been trying to sell different products like Tupperware, thirty-one bag's, Pink Zebra, Avon Canada! I haven't had any luck and I don't like how you have to watch their video's just to sell their products but that's me, I just want to advertise what they have on sale and try and get some buyer's! 

I want to do something that makes me some money an income, so I'm not relying on my husband income all the time to try and pay the bills and buy the groceries! If I could Blog everyday for a bit would it be worth you reading and maybe paying a small fee ? 🤔 I'm just trying to find a way to make extra money! I've been a Homemaker for 17 year's and full time Mom for 9 year's even though our boy's will be 7&4 this year! 

 This is Family day weekend, but everyday is Family day for us! I'm trying to stay positive and trying to find encouragement to keep me going everyday! Be safe and have a great weekend please don't drink and drive!