Mom Life

Being a Mom is tough, don't get any time for yourself, always exhausted and burnt out! Making sure everyone is fed, clothed and have lots of diapers until they're ready for potty training! I always live with a lot of pain, it's really hard some day's, I do have good day's but they're few and far between! I love our boy's, I wished our oldest health was better for him, but he's very smart and catching up to where he should be! Yes he's still behind on some things but he's getting there at his own pace! Our youngest is doing great and learning well, he's ahead of his older brother but that's alright, they're not competing against each other! 

I would love to have break and clear my head of crap and get back to more positive thinking! I wished I had more friends to motivate and inspire me, but hey I'm not well liked, and either I push people away or they push me away! I would love for life to better for my family but all I can do is dream! I've been depressed, have had anxiety , sometimes I don't know how I do it, but I'm in constant survival mode it never ends! 

Things Are Good!

Things are going good for us, we're almost caught up with all the bill's, just waiting for the extra money to come in then we can get everything paid off! We have a awesome health plan now, everything is 100% covered now! It's much better than before especially with Kevin and myself always on medication for something! Jeff loves going to work everyday, he's a 100% happier, and love's what he is doing because it's always something new everyday! He has Awesome 👍 Co-workers and Awesome Bosse's , his hours are amazing and his day's off make it better for me and the boy's! 

Well for me you know I'm just just a full time Mom/Homemaker my hands are full with the boy's all the time! I may never get what I want or need to do for myself, but I'm just a Mom that doesn't mean anything or count as anything in this world, just like you're Mom's and Grandma's before you! It's the way it is, society has given Mom's a bad rap when they should be praised for what they go through on a daily basis! It's not always easy, Mom's used to get paid for raising the children and doing chores around the home! Yes we love getting paid in hugs 🤗 and kisses 😘 but a little appreciation would be nice! Have a great week, stay safe and don't drink and drive! 

Feeling Good

I feel pretty good, I've been able to lower some bills and make some changes with them! Yes I post about my reality of life and that's just who I'am it makes me feel good to get it out of my system this way! It doesn't matter if you like it or not it's me , take me as I'am or watch me go! Life is tough growing up in an uncertain world, because we don't day for day what's going to happen! I'm just great full to be alive everyday that I wake up! I have my aches and pains everyday, I have my daily struggle's, it's just nothing ever goes right for me! I can never do anything right at times! Maybe if I wasn't bullied in school by my peers whom I have so called friends on social media with, maybe my life would be different now! I could never focus much in a lot of classes, math was my worst subject, but I'm better at some of it now! I'm glad I did graduate both elementary and high school, because I really hated going to school! I always looked forward to when the school day was over and the year had ended! I had some real horrible bullies in school, I'm surprised a lot of them haven't been in prison for the types of people that they are! 

Yes I did make a couple of good friends but friendships don't last forever! Just remember your true friends are your own family, yes might have friends but they turn their backs on you very quickly! Some will say I'm their for you anytime but are they really ? Yes I know I can say the same thing, but life is tough and these are hard times for everyone! 

Have a good weekend don't drink and drive! 

Christmas 🎄

Yes Christmas 🎄🎅🤶 even when spring 💐🦋 is around the corner! The past couple of Year's with this pandemic a lot of families still haven't celebrated yet, they still have their tree 🎄 up and presents 🎁 under the tree! They have gifts under their tree from someone who couldn't make it because of this awful pandemic that took them to soon! It's hard for people, this is the longest I've seen Christmas 🎄 things from people around the world on all social media platforms! I don't blame them for not being able to celebrate or make the big dinner! Maybe one day they will open up the gift's, if not the grandkids or nieces and nephews down the road will have a Christmas time capsule to open up! So if you are at someone's house or apartment and see the tree 🎄 up don't ask questions, Don't tell them they should take it down, just respect them when you are there! Yes it could also be with Autism or ADHD  but that doesn't matter as long as it makes them happy, you could be happy to! Just remember life is short, take it with a grain of salt! 

Positive

I'm trying to be Positive in a Negative World! It's hard, I'm trying to focus on the things that need doing, trying to make things easier and happier! There's things I've experienced that I don't anyone else to go through, we had a lot of bad traumatizing experience when we was at our apartment! Yes there was some good but few and far between! Since we've been here in our new apartment, there's been a lot of positivity with our boy's improvement on talking and learning things! Things get looked after over like there supposed to, I highly recommend renting with hardwood floors, not with carpet!  Yes carpet can help with warmth but it also invites bugs into your home, if you can just have hardwood and lanolin flooring throughout! Easier to clean and look after, but that's just me! I also recommend getting metal furniture, just have a mattress with no box spring, because having the box spring invites bed bugs, also try using a metal futon for a couch it's cheaper and a good space saver! 

I'm making some financial change's by decreasing some stuff or decreasing stuff! I still have a lot of debt to deal with, but hey who doesn't these days LOL 👍

Us as Family in whole is good and happy, my husband love's his jobs and the pay's are better than they ever have been! We're just playing catch-up with everything but it'll happen in time but slowly! Our boy's are the most important thing right now, yes maybe I can't go to work or sell you anything because you don't want to buy from me, but that's alright I don't care anymore about it ☺️ I'll find a way to make money one day! Have a good week don't drink and drive! 

Struggling

Hi, Sorry I've been absent it's been a struggle this week and rough as well! I'm great full that my husband did change job's in December 2021! He just has to get his A-Z license now for other stuff he needs to do with his job! I wished I could could work as well, but our boy's need me, I feed and clothe them, play with them and do homeschooling with them! The doctors and OT's say we're doing everything right during this pandemic with them, especially with our oldest son immune system in the sewer system worse than a new born baby immune system! Luckily he gets blood work near the end of March then we can see where's he's at and how to treat him to get him healthier! 

I'm getting back into Blogging again, it helps me out and people can just read and say I've either been there or not! I'm trying to figure out stuff for myself and my family, I want an income as well! I know I need to Blog everyday in order for that to happen, I'm working on it! I'm looking forward to the warmer weather and getting out more often and I'm hoping we all get to Santa's Village in Bracebridge again soon🎅🤶 We all miss our trips away! Have a good weekend don't drink and drive! 

Living in Debt Life

Okay so I owe a lot of money to my credit Card's and other things! I owe $7,810.56 on my credit Card's! I have over $800.00 in my Walmart cart of things we need, I have $700.00 in Amazon cart of things we need! I'm a Homemaker for 17 year's now, which means I make no money and have no income! I rely on my husband income to pay for everything! It's hard and struggling to keep up with everything! I also have about $3,000.00 in tuition fees for courses I'm trying to take and learn if I ever get any free time to do so! I have websites but a lot required fee's to pay for them so you can buy from them! It's ridiculous, you should just go to the website and make a purchase, there shouldn't be fee's to have it! I don't want to do social media parties I just want you to click and buy something if you want it! 

This is Reality of my life, I want to get a couple of tattoo's for myself, go for more walk's when the weather gets nicer, I want to have time to learn things, but it's not going to happen any time soon! I live life one day at a time and do the best I can with it! 

Have a good week don't drink and drive!