Mom Life

Being a Mom is tough, don't get any time for yourself, always exhausted and burnt out! Making sure everyone is fed, clothed and have lots of diapers until they're ready for potty training! I always live with a lot of pain, it's really hard some day's, I do have good day's but they're few and far between! I love our boy's, I wished our oldest health was better for him, but he's very smart and catching up to where he should be! Yes he's still behind on some things but he's getting there at his own pace! Our youngest is doing great and learning well, he's ahead of his older brother but that's alright, they're not competing against each other! 

I would love to have break and clear my head of crap and get back to more positive thinking! I wished I had more friends to motivate and inspire me, but hey I'm not well liked, and either I push people away or they push me away! I would love for life to better for my family but all I can do is dream! I've been depressed, have had anxiety , sometimes I don't know how I do it, but I'm in constant survival mode it never ends! 

Things Are Good!

Things are going good for us, we're almost caught up with all the bill's, just waiting for the extra money to come in then we can get everything paid off! We have a awesome health plan now, everything is 100% covered now! It's much better than before especially with Kevin and myself always on medication for something! Jeff loves going to work everyday, he's a 100% happier, and love's what he is doing because it's always something new everyday! He has Awesome 👍 Co-workers and Awesome Bosse's , his hours are amazing and his day's off make it better for me and the boy's! 

Well for me you know I'm just just a full time Mom/Homemaker my hands are full with the boy's all the time! I may never get what I want or need to do for myself, but I'm just a Mom that doesn't mean anything or count as anything in this world, just like you're Mom's and Grandma's before you! It's the way it is, society has given Mom's a bad rap when they should be praised for what they go through on a daily basis! It's not always easy, Mom's used to get paid for raising the children and doing chores around the home! Yes we love getting paid in hugs 🤗 and kisses 😘 but a little appreciation would be nice! Have a great week, stay safe and don't drink and drive! 

Feeling Good

I feel pretty good, I've been able to lower some bills and make some changes with them! Yes I post about my reality of life and that's just who I'am it makes me feel good to get it out of my system this way! It doesn't matter if you like it or not it's me , take me as I'am or watch me go! Life is tough growing up in an uncertain world, because we don't day for day what's going to happen! I'm just great full to be alive everyday that I wake up! I have my aches and pains everyday, I have my daily struggle's, it's just nothing ever goes right for me! I can never do anything right at times! Maybe if I wasn't bullied in school by my peers whom I have so called friends on social media with, maybe my life would be different now! I could never focus much in a lot of classes, math was my worst subject, but I'm better at some of it now! I'm glad I did graduate both elementary and high school, because I really hated going to school! I always looked forward to when the school day was over and the year had ended! I had some real horrible bullies in school, I'm surprised a lot of them haven't been in prison for the types of people that they are! 

Yes I did make a couple of good friends but friendships don't last forever! Just remember your true friends are your own family, yes might have friends but they turn their backs on you very quickly! Some will say I'm their for you anytime but are they really ? Yes I know I can say the same thing, but life is tough and these are hard times for everyone! 

Have a good weekend don't drink and drive!