Rough

Last week started with Jeff getting sick, then giving it to me and the boy's! Luckily it wasn't COVID-19 but just the basic head cold virus! Then we had Easter, it was great! We all had fun and the boy's call the Easter Bunny, Bunny Claus 🐰🎅

They got Blaze and the Monster Machines 18 Wheeler's with ways the toy's can go around things! Lot's of Easter Candy and we had Cheese burgers with boiled potatoes for dinner! They also got other toy's as well! This week we're just all getting over the last of the cold and Kevin goes to SickKids Hospital on Thursday, fingers crossed 🤞 everything works out alright for him! I'm scared and nervous for him! The Bill's are being paid, some are always cut in half because of lack of fund's until next pay cheque to pay some off or third of payment etc ... 

I wished I could have gotten myself a steady 17 year's ago, but people were trying to get in the way of our relationship and soon marriage to be! So I had to stop looking for work, I've been a Homemaker 17 year's because of them! Yes I love being a Mom, I just wished I could help Jeff more financially but nobody likes me or wants to buy from me! There loss and I just don't care anymore! We're doing everything we can to make our boy's Live's better, including not paying for our debts that we have! We want them to have a good life after we're gone one day,and we pray that they both get loved and looked after we're gone! I fear not being around for them when I'm dead! I know my family will step up and help them because nobody on Jeff's side will do it, they can't afford to which is what they've told us many times! That's alright my family always comes through! 

Some day's I cook just the meat, then the veggies the next day! I have a lot of pain's, aches and sometimes my feet and legs try to give out on me especially at night time! I'm always numb from below my knees to my feet, then I have the chest pain's I'm dealing with, which is why I'm having a mammogram and ultrasound and biopsy done! My left breast is also swollen and I've noticed some purple colour to it! Sometimes I feel like a phenix and tiger with everything I've gone through in life! I've collapsed and passed out looking after the boy's and with no help except from them and they've been great helping me when I've needed their help! Yes there's been many times I've should have gone to the hospital, but I can't do anything until Jeff get's home from work, that way he can take over looking after them! 

Have a good week stay safe 😷 wear your Mask! If you are Essential wear your Mask! 😷